Tumblr's ask limitToday is June 9th,
my 21st birthday.
Yesterday my long-distance girlfriend killed herself.
It all started with her telling me
over the phone
that she wanted to cut deeper then usual.
She told me she knew her limit
which scared me even more.
because if normally slices her wrist’s
at the very limit
I’d hate to know what “cut deeper” meant
so that was the first alarm.
An hour into the phone call
she started crying uncontrollably
and kept on telling me that she loved me
no matter what.
The “no matter what” scared me.
That was the second alarm.
I went on her Tumblr to send her a cute message
to try and cheer her up
when I saw her suicide note.
In disbelief, I refreshed the page
only to learn she blocked me
from her Tumblr. I was too busy with this to realize
she had hung up the phone as well.
I went on my alternate Tumblr account
and luckily enough I could see her page again
but all I could do is ask her anonymous messages.
To My RapistYou killed yourself the other day
because you were finally going to jail
for what you did to me
and countless other kids
and let me tell you
how livid that makes me.
I hate the fact that you stole
my virginity from me.
I hate that you’re not getting what
I hate that you took
the coward’s way out.
But most of all
that I didn’t get the chance
to forgive you
and for that